When an animal or a human with whom we have shared a vigorous love leaves this plane, where does the love go? All of that energy in life suddenly just isn’t there. Where is it? To say to myself that it melts into the diffuseness of the general cosmic love doesn’t satisfy. Where is it? The love I want to express for Coco, where to put it? Into the void? Into something else? None of that feels right. The love that he expressed for me that was the strongest force in my day-to-day life – is just not there. I’ve never experienced a death like this one. I suppose they are all different. This is not comfortable. I don’t like it right now, not at all. I miss my dog.